In a recent conversation with my therapist, I was telling him about my moment of sadness regarding my body, which sparked my previous post. I also told him I was going on vacation soon to a resort in Mexico. He asked if I was going to be comfortable going to the pool and beach, wearing a tank top or being topless. I knew there would be feelings of anxiousness, but I wanted to push through and not be worried about looks and stares.
Well that vacation just ended Sat, Sept 25th, and I must say I had a blast. Yes, I was anxious about being judged for my size. Yes, I was anxious about showing my chest. Yes, I tried to find pool chairs close to the pool so I could take my shirt off, then hop right in. However, I pushed through. Matter of fact, even went down to the beach and took a group picture with my friends; topless! Wanna see it? Here it go:
I’m proud of this picture. We all look great! I’m going to get this developed and framed!
Anxious Courage 
I am so proud of you for facing your anxiety head on and taking control of the narrative. Your body is beautiful, sexy, healthy and whole. We are all continuous works in progress. Embracing your body at its present state is another check mark along your journey to total healing.
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That’s great Gil. Glad you had fun and that you felt comfortable at the pool and beach. I’m glad.
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